Her

She’s gone.

She’s gone and I find it hard to believe.

She held me back.

One year ago, I walked away from you for what could have been the last time ever.

One year since I hid in an alley, tears stinging my eyes, knowing you were only a few feet away from me.

But, things played out the way I had always hoped.

She’s gone and it hasn’t fully hit me.

It’s been 12 months and I miss you terribly.

There’s so much you need to know.

I want to blow you away,

but you need time.

Am I the next star on your horizon?

All signs point to “yes.”

“How would it be in years when we are saved from this?”

Too Young To Feel This Old

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“So, where in Brooklyn are you located?” “Greenpoint.” “Oh my God, you are so lucky! That is the neighborhood to be in!” “I guess.” “They shoot Girls there! OMG have you ever like, seen Lena Dunham on the street?” Typical … Continue reading

The Music Seen

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Nowadays, it seems like everyone and their mother has a blog. Music journalism used to be reserved for the big guys – Rolling Stone, Spin, etc. Now, anybody can write about music which isn’t so great for credibility’s sake . … Continue reading

I’m Sorry, Dear Self

I have been neglecting my blogging duties! My apologies! I am back now and ready to complain again. How lucky for you!

Today would have been my grandmother’s 86th birthday. I keep wondering what she would say to me today if she could tell me anything. I know I say this a lot, but I hope she’s proud of me. I feel like I’m holding on so tightly to things, afraid to let something go but I’m not exactly sure what that is.

My own birthday is this Friday. Six months ago, I made a promise to myself that I would actually find a job by now. Unfortunately, life isn’t that easy. What I hate the most though is that I let myself down. I do that a lot. I’m trying to be better, but my mind won’t shut up sometimes. I’m finding it hard to fit in anywhere. I know there’s a wonderful position for me out there; I just gotta dig a little deeper.

It’s okay to have failed. It means you’ve tried. But never stop trying. That’s when you truly fail.

Wish me luck?

I Think God Can Explain

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When you lose yourself in something that ultimately leads to a breakthrough, precious time isn’t wasted. We go through the motions of the confusion, not sure which way to turn. At the same time, we’re begging God to speak – … Continue reading

I Didn’t Go to College. I Regret Nothing.

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Let’s just start off by mentioning the elephant in the room: I didn’t go to college…and I don’t plan on it. I’ve definitely thought about it and even in high school I had always assumed I’d go, since that’s the … Continue reading

What The Death of Robin Williams Can Teach Us About Life, Legacies and Living Selflessly

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The death of Robin Williams has shocked an entire nation; a nation that is overcome with the wide-spread disease of depression. Stricken with grief, some say it’s so hard to picture Williams as a sad soul, but truth be told, … Continue reading

Fearless In 2014: Work With What You Have

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Growing up, and even now, all I heard my mother say was that we didn’t have enough money or resources. Money, like I stated in my last post, is obviously crucial for a lot of things these days, and without … Continue reading