A couple of days ago, I was in a pretty bad place. Things seemed to be getting harder and I started to question whether I misinterpreted a few things. I never used to believe much in God, but a few years ago, that all changed. Now, whenever I’m on the verge of a breakdown, I turn to Christ.
Today I started to think about all of the things I feel like I screwed up in my life. After rehashing everything, I realized that everything I did in the past got me to this point. Even though I feel like I’m not where I should be, I’m not going to let that scare me or hold me back anymore. If I told society what I have right now, they’d say I have nothing. When I ask God what I have, He says I have everything and quite frankly, His opinion is the only one I value from now on. It’s good to know that I’m not walking this path alone. I am truly blessed. I want no part in what others have. I want what I want, not what others tell me I should want and/or have.
As I discovered all of these blessings in my life, I also felt like a prayer was answered. That thing that I thought I may have misread? Well, I’m on the right path. It won’t be easy. It never was. But the events that have taken place over this past week are going to be a beautiful blessing sometime soon. I kind of knew it all along, but I still felt scared. In fact, I almost kind of saw it coming. It’s amazing, but whenever one of my prayers gets answered, my anxiety fades away until all I feel is a peaceful calm. To that, all I can say is thank You. Maybe I’ll get some sleep tonight.
25 is going to be a good one. I may not have felt it 24 hours ago, but now I do. That answered prayer was the only birthday present I could ever ask for.
I’m sorry for being cryptic but some things are better left as a mystery. If it ever does play out, you’ll definitely hear about it, though! I can’t keep something that miraculous to myself. 😉